For the past few weeks, I have been under the radar due to some personal issues and the emotional roller coaster that I was on and definitely had to get off of. I thought it would be a quick bounce back, but I was overloaded with so many emotions that I felt weighed down and just didn’t feel like myself at all, which really bothered me. I prayed and literally cried out to God to deal with the hurt and emotions so I could get back on track and be me again. Most people know me as a fun-loving, energetic, outgoing person, but I do have my moments where it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, and I am not one to blast what’s going on in my life across social media. I have a selected group of people to whom I open up when I’m at my lowest, unless God leads me to share for ministry purposes.
Thinking about how I had so many emotions to deal with and how I thought it was going to be a (walk in the park which, needless to say, it wasn’t) led me to think about you. And how you may be dealing with stressful situations that no one knows about or maybe a selected few do. However, you may be feeling weighed down and feel like you are on a never-ending emotional roller coaster ride, but I am here to encourage you to take time out for yourself and regroup so you can deal with those emotions. For me, talking to a trusted confidante and God helps me in my process of releasing things. Discover the ways that you release best so you can begin to heal. It’s okay to step back from everything and allow yourself to go through a process of healing. Yes, it’s a process! Sometimes we think that when we are hurt we will instantly get up and go on with our lives. However, that is not the case. It is important to take care of yourself before you can even think of being there for others. We often times think we can neglect ourselves and serve others, but I am here to tell you that’s not true. Truthfully, I couldn’t be there for anyone during the time I was dealing with my emotions. No matter how bad I wanted to be, I just didn’t have the capacity to be present like I needed to be. So don’t short change yourself and try to be superwoman to everyone and allow yourself to die emotionally. Love yourself enough to make sure that you are okay first so that you can operate and function in the way God called you to.
The Word Worshiper